To My Sister,
I remember Mum telling me she was expecting a baby. I was 10 years old and so excited to become a big sister (it had to be better than being a little sister!). Those months flew by so fast waiting for you to arrive and when you did, you were so cute and just a little noisy. Visiting you in hospital feels like yesterday, definitely not over 14 years ago!
Being a big sister was lovely, and still is – sometimes!
I see you now growing into such an independent and confident person. I watch you sometimes and can’t believe how grown up you are. When did that happen? Like seriously, where have these years gone? One minute you are crying at me to watch the Fimbles with you and then in the blink of an eye we are shopping together and gossiping over a cuppa whilst shopping with my little girl!
When I was your age, I was so insecure, constantly trying to follow the crowd. I think I was wearing Fred Perry jumpers and Stan Smiths on my feet. I cared so much about what everybody thought. You were four when I was 14 and you always would put a smile on my face. In your eyes, I was this amazing big sister and I loved that (obviously!) Sometimes I wouldn’t be happy if you had had your hands in my make up or make me sit and watch Balamory and play shops with you at the same time. But most of the time, you were so funny that you always had someone laughing. Unless you were in a temper when all hell broke loose. Not much has changed with your temper though – haha!
When I have seen you upset about things that have happened in school, it breaks my heart. I tell you that it will be OK and people will forget but I sympathise with you so much. I know it feels like the end of the world right now, but things will get better. You won’t be at school forever. You won’t feel like this forever. Promise.
When I go shopping with you, you buys clothes because you love them. Not because they are ‘in’, not because everyone else is wearing them, but because you like them and you know they will look good on you. I envy you so much with how much confidence you have at that age. And so you should. You are beautiful inside and out. (Again, apart from the tempers if you’re tired!)
You wear make up when you want to wear make up. And that is how it should be. I started to wear make up from like 12 and my skin has suffered terribly because of it but you have such lovely skin that you don’t need make up. You wear it every now and again if you go to parties but that is all – I am so jealous 😦
We fight pretty much all the time and we steal each other’s clothes almost every day but I think that is what having a Sister is like most of the time. Whatever I say to you when i’m naggy, I never mean it. Please remember that.
I am so grateful that I have you in Violet’s life, as Violet’s Auntie, as my Sister and my best friend. You are an incredible role model for her and for me. We have been through a lot in the past few years especially with Violet and I being poorly but you have always been there. Even if we just watch a movie and eat rubbish food – you were there.
If Violet becomes even half the girl you are today, I will be one proud Mum. Just like I feel proud to be your Sister.
Carry on being amazing. Wear what you wanna wear, do what you wanna do, say what you wanna say (within reason you little madam!). We love you so much,